Goobye my friend
Thursday, March 29, 2007
That 11 holed boxer is officially gone for good. One fine day, mommy couldn't take it no more and forced me to hand it over and sent it to the dumps.
posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 7:48 PM
this is to feel up the empty space
Friday, March 16, 2007
The empty space must be filled up. Why? Because space must be used to fill up this patch of emptiness. Lame but true. Thus the emptiness is now being filled up with space. I am using space to feel up this emptiness here and now it isn't so empty anymore as I have used space to fill it up. Space, emptiness and what not. Get the message? Even I myself don't.
posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 11:59 AM
That painful stroke
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
For 3 years he did everything he could to please you hoping for you to have a glimpse at him. From transport to gifts to calls and to all the little bit of sincerity that's in him just to simply please you. You know liking someone for about 3 years really is not an easy thing. Especially when you know the odds are always against you, having insults splat right infront of your face, calls being hung up, egos being shattered. I tell you people it really IS NOT EASY taking all this kinda shit. But still he persevered all the way, I don't know what's inside of him that made him withstand all the persian's arrow flying straight at him. But one thing I do know is that he's in pain now. Yes, my friend is most defintely in pain. Because finally after 3 years the girl gave a reply and it wasn't a yes. So here's the thing I don't understand, why after 3 fucking years? Isn't there a chinese idiom say "Duan tong bu ru chang tong" meaning short lived pain rather than long lived pain. If you didn't like that someone right from the start, couldn't you have made it clear right right from the begining. If he didn't get the message at the first time, say it again and again till he bloody gets the message. And not after 3 fucking years when you guys have graduated. You bet he is broken now, I feel him man. I know there's a saying "Love can not order" some shit like this, you get what I mean right. So I do not blame you, but I'm just puzzled why after 3 years man? After all the countless things he had done for you, won't you be guilty? I'm sure years down the road you'll feel for him as what I'm feeling for him right now and I bet he'd rather get bang down by a car than endure this shit. To my dear friend whom I know would not be reading this, I would like you to know that there's a alot of mermaids out there whom I'm sure at least one would reciprocate your feelings. Although you have fell this once at least you have learnt many valuable lessons along with it. So get up on your feet and embrace what this beautiful world still has to offer (Like dota)! Talk to me, talk to us, talk to those who care about you cause you know we're still here.Sometimes when something happen to else one, you kinda feel for that person and the little things that matter to you do not actually matter anymore. It's like something greater over coming something smaller. Oh well.
posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 1:14 PM
What hurts the most
Monday, March 12, 2007
"What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away, and never know if what could have been and it seemed that loving you was what I was trying to do."I like that.
posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 2:54 PM
Him me and you
Monday, March 05, 2007
It's quite an unexpected twist of how things started between us and why we came this far. I didn't know what to expect , wasn't know what was installed for me and why it is even me when there are god knows how many more out there dying to be in my shoes.Then he came, I came and there's us. Yes us. I didnt know how he feels but I can safely say it's somewhat very similar to how I feel. You know you're really once in a lifetime man, you catch us by surprise and left us feeling wow. The 3 of us are real good together but it's even more beautiful when it's just two of us. Any 2 among the 3 of us makes it beautiful, an irony isn't it?You are special my friend, we really really feel that way. And you really made us feel special too. It's like "wow I got that special someone out there for me and it's just me and not simply others". We do feel special in your eyes! That I thank you, zihui :)And for you, I'm pretty much at loss right now. Cause 3 months down the road we're probably gone for good.
posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 11:21 PM
