Today my mom came speaking to me regarding my boxers.

Mum: I just bought new ones for you, throw away those with holes.

Me: But why? The one I wearing got 11 only what.

Mum: Hai bu gou ah? (Which means not enough isit)

Me: Hahahahaha!

Very cute.

I hate what I like
Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Have you come across something you hate and like at the same time? Sometimes it gets real annoying that you even wonder how you even like that something. And then there are happy times whereby you forget how you can even hate that something. And lastly there are times whereby you so wanna smack that something and yet cuddle it with loads of love at the same time. It's contradicting I know, guess life is a little irony after all eh. (Heh, that sounds familiar.)

It would be nice if I could just take out my heart place it in front of you and let you see how I feel. After which, I'll just take it back and put in back into place. Wouldnt' things be much simpler then? But then again, I got such a big heart that it would be too troublesome taking it out. Hiaks hiaks.

I still feel that when it all goes bad, it's almost impossible to turn around and make it all good.

PS: That something is a living thing. It has 1 pair of big eyes, 1 pair of short legs and 10 fat fingers. Very irritating and smackable. Ugly usually but pretty at times. Most importantly, she loves me alot so that seals the deal. (Haha!)

posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 4:26 PM

Almost crossed it
Monday, December 25, 2006

Sometimes the anger just grew out of a sudden rage. It's like a barrel of gun powder ready to explode. If it does the surroundings will be damage and hurt. I'm glad that barrel didn't lit off cause if it did, I'm sure I'll defintely regret.

It's always nice seeing someone coming to appologise for that moment of folly. The courage to step up forward and initiate the appology is something worth respecting.

It's been such a long time since I last felt it.
It's been such a long time since I last held it.

posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 3:04 PM

Sometimes I wish my ass just shuts down
Wednesday, December 20, 2006

It's terrible having coughs for about a week. You feel the air trapped in your lungs all the way up to your throat and finally you let out the cough and you thought it's all over. But then the cycle repeats over and over again, till you are so tired of giving out the next damn cough. And that's not it, I had to get diarrhoea as well. Basket it hurts like crazy, imagine shitting semi watery solid substance out your ass. Not once, not twice but thrice in half hour. Seriously it felt as if your ass got ripped apart. The pain just keeps coming back one after another, thank god chinese medcine do work after all. I can recall when I shit last night, It seems more of urinating than shitting cause everything just go "Split Splat Splash Boom".

posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 12:25 PM

Officially 19
Saturday, December 16, 2006

And Im officially 19.

This year my mom wasn't the first to kiss me anymore. (Both kisses were on the right cheek. Why tell me! Less pimples is it!)

I got 2 hugs by the both of you, you even whispered "Happy birthday softly" (So passionate laaaaa)

I got an XL tee shirt which I think is a little too small for me. (Like you said I'll look sexier with it ripped apart)

I'm down with sore throat for the first time on my birthday.

My brother gave me a pair of billabong slippers and this cute ankle socks with 5 holes to put my whatever thing we call that. (Jerk, you can buy your own slippers already)

My dad as usual asked me to pick number for his 4D draw. (If you win, you know what to do)

The usual sms came flooding in, but this time you surprised me. Little did I expect anything from you, still it's a pleasure knowing you remembered.

One sms said " _|_ " (I call that love)

Fishball, Princess and Dancing queen wore "THAT THIN ORANGE HAIRBAND". (Thanks for doing that! To Fishball: Wear for a few more hours can die is it.)

I had an icecream birthday cake topped with a penis looking like sweet to serve as a candle. (That is sweet)

Got my usual ang paos (Sometimes I feel it's pretty meaningless, oh well.)

I had dinner at cafe cartel. (Freaking full lah)

AND LASTLY, at 1130. A call came in telling me to go downstairs. When I walked towards you guys, there's a slice of cheesecake and you were all singing to me "Happy birthday". You don't know how DELIGHTED I AM. Really, thank you so much. It's not the cake, nor the card but your presence that made me go "Awwwww, you guys are simply the best." I feel a little bad that you people hadn't had enough rest and still had to take a cab down to "surprise" me. I'm touched, I really am! Fishball, Princess, Handwei, a big thank you once again! And the rest of the names I didn't mention, you're not forgotten!

PS: THAT MISSING SOCK HAS BEEN FOUND IN THE WASHING MACHINE!
PS: I like the card alot and I mean ALOT! I'll choose the beef ball with thin orange hairband okay.

posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 11:10 AM

That missing sock
Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Usually what goes into your washing machine comes out from it right? Well not so right in my case.

Mum: Rayner where's your the other sock?

Me: How I know? For what I wanna keep the other sock!

Mum: Can't be what, then what happen to the other one?

Dad: Oh maybe he ate it.

Me: &*(@*@&*(#

Then I told a few of my friends about it and 1 of them said
"Maybe you threw one into the washing machine and wore the other one."

Seriously, that friend of mine thinks I'm the dumbest fella alive. Smack you.

posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 10:41 PM

Moments
Sunday, December 10, 2006

I watched "V for vendetta" with my family earlier on. It's a damn good movie and the 2 hours we spent watching together was superb. It's something easy yet hard to do. And when we all start to comment during the movie, it's like some kinda communication going on eh. What can I say? That's my family.

You know it's nice to know when 2 old friends get to meet up and start to catch up with one another. What's even nicer is when they start to speak quite abit of you during their conversation. It's as if you're the one that logically link the both of them back together. You feel remembered and the impression you left on them is there. It is sweeeeet.

Sometimes I wonder if my existence to you really matter. You have so many people there to love you, will 1 less make a difference at all? I don't know.

posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 12:25 AM

I think it's people
Sunday, December 03, 2006

It's not the action or expression, but rather the people. We see the things people has done for us and listen to the things they talk about us. But deep down inside us the only thing that truly matter is who its coming from. 2 people might do the same thing for you, but only one of them really matters more.

Phrases like "I love you", "I miss you" are used more often that not. It seems we're all just saying it for the sake of it, sometimes I wonder how true it really is anymore. I'll be really happy if you told me you miss me. Hiaks.

It's another passing year for sean and everything just seem like yesterday. I wonder how many more years like this do we have. Whereby all your family members is beside you singing you your birthday song and watching you make that birthday wish. I simply love moments like this.

I feel as if im rushing towards a closing door. I just hope I can make it there in time and see what's in it. Please don't close before I reach, cause I really want to be there.

posted by Rayner who killed a lamb again at 10:02 PM